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Saturday, January 26th, 2008
3:01 am
ugh i hate myspace and i need to vent T_T
yeah myspace is gay.. and everytime i try and post a blog its liek ERROR stupid shit -_-

ok so its 3am and here i am sitting here alone.
January 26th... according to my plane ticket.. ive been here since January 15th of last year.
Now here I am.. now becoming depressed because i miss my family and friends more than a anything. I only have so many friends here (what 2 including rob?) I don't really have anything to occupy my time except work.. and there i only have so many hours and it takes a half hour to get there.

I don't know I just feel really alone at this point in time.

And bringing up getting married is like.. hmm.. certain things at this point still make me go hmmm
i mean.. ug!! our communication still sucks ass. I always want to talk to him but I cant cuz im always afraid hes gonna flip it around and make me feel bad cuz I cant get it out how it sounds in my head and feels in my heart.

I'm tired of being dissapointed by everyone around me.

im just here.. really.. im not sure if anyone really wants me here.

Sure he says he loves me but does he mean it?

Since ive been here.. we didnt even do anything for the valentines day..
since ive been here.. he hasnt gotten me flowers..
shit jess and jeff havent been together very long and he got her a necklace...
and even tho i shouldnt have an 'item' or anything to show me he cares.. but i mean..
something anything romantic even?? no candle light dinner he planned.. nothing sweet like that at all .. he doesnt even say good night to me .. he usually does when i say it.. but always half ass cuz hes too tired.. and as soon as he lays down he starts snoring..

i want to know why he wont let me in. i still feel theres some sort of wall that hes not letting me across , that he doesnt feel the same way i do about him

how i try my best everyday for him .. i dont know i just feel my feelings are much stronger and im not getting anything back...

and at some point i think am i waisting my time?? i miss my mother, i miss my sister.. i miss brooke and sarah and megz..

i gave up everything for him.. everything...

and i dont wanna feel this way all the time.. i hate it...

and even tho i can type it now.. i know theres no way i can possibly say it to him and have it come out right .. and even now it probably didnt..

but im just so confused..

and alone..

T-T

Current Mood: depressed
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
12:45 am
postin 4 u
shit. ok i lost all the links before T_T i had it already to post but i had em open in tabs;; and i CLOSED the window! bah! so yeah.. i recoverd one;.. but now i have to reup the other 2 T_T note to everyone either use new windows or send the files to ur email; LOL so u dun loose em; LOL or click on the links urself so theyre in ur history... or they will be history T__T

For
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shit. ok i lost all the links before T_T i had it already to post but i had em open in tabs;; and i CLOSED the window! bah! so yeah.. i recoverd one;.. but now i have to reup the other 2 T_T note to everyone either use new windows or send the files to ur email; LOL so u dun loose em; LOL or click on the links urself so theyre in ur history... or they will be history T__T

For <lj-user="xmad_alicex"> sorry if u have these;
Koyote MP3 pack // <a href="http://www.megaupload.com/?d=OQYCNNOU" target="new"> MEGA</a>

For <lj-user="ch0nks">
Ryang Hyun Ryang Ha MP3 Pack // <a href="http://www.megaupload.com/?d=BSPY4EKY" target="new"> MEGA </a>

For <lj-user="auroradreamaker">
Isak n Jiyon 1 // <a href="http://www.megaupload.com/?d=5GO2XH9C" target="new"> MEGA </a>
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
12:59 pm
huk;
Bah, I dont want to go to work. Lately Ive been the closing shift ( whenever to 10) and when I close I dont sleep till like 3 am; and THEN they expect me to be back at 9am;; so.. I am really tired. Tonight I close 330 - 10 and then 2morrow I go in for my next dentist opointment. ^^ the sooner the better for that tho; but its at 9am;; I am gonna be so dead.

But yes pictures of me were reqested, and sadly enough I dont have any recent RECENT, tho I should, maybe if i can get dressed up quick enough for work I'll add more but.

this is what I do haveCollapse )

but yes.. I promise Ill post more updated photos, esp ones of my feets LOL so you know I havent reached 'psycho' phase. Later guys I'll post in a bit.

~chel
Friday, February 20th, 2004
11:15 pm
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Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
8:31 am
my fruits auction
i dont think this is the place for me to be doing this but yeah;; i finally got up my lil auction page and im just posting it for u guys. remember me posting mah stuffs along time ago and everyone wanted to buy it but i was like ahhhhh on the prices cuz i didnt want u to pay too much or too less... so i finally made this page ^^ so view it! and bid! ok?


cherryheejun fruits auction


http://board5.cgiworld.net/list.cgi?id=cherryjun&now=1


thanks again guys!!

chel~*

Current Mood: accomplished
Saturday, April 26th, 2003
12:04 am
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